February 29, 2008

listen and think

a blog is suppose to talk about stuffs that we like...or at least about oneself..

and yes thats all ive done so far..but in truth(or at least in my point of view)people dont really want to read about all the sad stuffs..we dont really need people to feel sympathize to a point that its pathetic..

but in reality,we need to sometimes let go all our emotion..its one of many trait that make us human...without them, we are merely dolls

im not a writer..im not a singer..im not anything extraordinary..but im me...everyone different in many ways

im writing this in respond that i get from what people think about something i accidentally pop to someone.."do u think society around us that shape us?"

i do think so..im not making this up..tell me..when did u ever when out..doin sumthing u like, but get cut down by a comment from frens..or families?

this is not a rare thing...i myself have experienced this..i know how it feels..when people around us view us in their own way..and to be able to live within this small cage world..one need to listen and think..

the era for BE YOURSELF is long gone..you understand urself the best..and thats that..but when u do show ur real faces..will people like it?do u want people to like it?

theres always voices that says..as long as u are comfortable in it..dont change..but can u not change?everyone want to be perfect..even perfectly imperfect..

the truth is no one is perfect..but we can be perfect in others eyes..thats what i believe..

we live now in a world and time where no man or woman stand on his on ground anymore..we are influence by many many more factors out there that makes the world go around..not just love..but money,stock exchange..oil price..war..peace..fashion..oscar..awards..gossips..

this are all the little things that seems nothing in some eyes, but now and here..where everything depends on one another, everything possible..

so i ask again..do u really wanna be urself?can u still be urself without hurting anyone?without hurting ur close fren or ur most dearest "sayang"

my last word.."it is not who we are that make us..it is the action that we took"

February 24, 2008

man are from mars after all..

i met a fren of mine..a male fren..we did promise to see..pastu dia blanja..so takkan nk tolak rezeki kan?hehe

and it was but a short conversation..because i have to be home by nite..so tak lama sgt jumpa..

tp time kita org jumpa tu..i ask some questions yg mmg aku tau dia ade jawapnya..sbb dia ade pengalaman dlm bab2 mcm nie..

i ask him about love and life..kita org kenang balik la..its really stupid..i know now dia ade gf..and a very cute one too..lucky him..

aku tanya.."ko rasa laki berubah ke bila ade pmpuan dlm hidup dia?"

and dia jwb.."yes..aku rasa akan berubah..tgk jela aku nie..dulu mane suka dress up bodo2 mcm nie..ni sume keja awek aku la.."

aku ketawa..aku tau tu jawapan dia..aku tanya lagi.."ko rasa laki ke pmpuan yg lebih menghargai satu relationship tu?"

dia tak paham..tp dia jwb gak..dia kata.."aku rasa dua2 pun sama..tp kalo dh betul2 in luv..i think guys would be more vulnerable..yela..laki ni kan keras..skali dah couple..cair la.."

aku paham jwpan dia..tiba dia tanya aku nape aku asyik tanya soklan nie..aku kata la saje..takkan la nk luah perasaan kat guys kan(EGO BEB!!!)

im surprise dia answer jawapan tu dgn senang..aku rasa betul la bile org ckp..a women is men's weakness...

aku tanya dia.."kalo ko tau awek ko curang dgn ko..ko sanggup tak dgn dia lagi?"

jwpan dia plak.."bro, kita laki la..kita mesti lemah kt pmpuan..sekeras mane kita pun..tp kalo dia curang..aku still tak suka..sbb tu aku seboleh2 cari yg setia bro..tp bukan senang kan?"

hmm..betul..bukan senang..

what i get from about 2 hours conversation dgn dia?mcm2 info..so aku nk gali lagi benda nie...aku tanya some of my male buddies(yg takkan baca blog aku..huhu)

most of them said yg they do change when they made a girl..secara halus dia org berubah..sometimes they change forever..sometimes for a while..tp dia org mmg akui..a girl can change a men's life..

and dia org ckp lagi..yg today's guy tak mcm dulu..kita org lagi sensitive and more understanding of what women want..if we would ever had a fight,we would be the one yg minta maap..regardless of their ego..or sape start dulu..

aku saje nk tulis nie..i thank them sebab layan karenah bodo aku nie..hehehe

later

February 23, 2008

secondhand serenade-the last song ever

I wish my life was this song
cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
and never have to cry I’d show u how I feel
with out saying a word
I could rap up both are hearts
I no it sounds absurd

and i saw the tears on ur face
i shot u down and i slammed the door
but couldn’t make a sound
so please stay sweet my dear
don’t hate me now
i cant tell how this last song ends

the way that i feel tonight so down so down i pray i can swim just so i wont drown and the waves that crash over me i am gasping for air take my hand so i can breath as i write this last song down

and i saw the tears on ur face i shot u down
and i slammed the door but couldn’t make a sound
so please stay sweet my dear
don’t hate me now
i cant tell how this last song ends

the broken glass ..... your moistened skin
was everything was everything

and your broken voice ..... was quivering
your everything your everything

scream at me make it the best i ever heard
laugh out loud i no it sounds absurd

scream at me make it the best i ever heard
your everything your everything

heart beats slowing pains are growing
does she love you that’s worth knowing

heart beats slowing pains are growing
does she love you that’s worth knowing

Yeaaaaaaa!!!

chris brown - i wanna be





[ Intro: ]
[ Sigh ] Look.. I know we've been friends for a while
now.. But, I just feel like I can confess
to you.. It's gonna be hard but.. Alright here it goes...

[ Verse 1: ]
Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my
chest, and the tissue that you wiped your
face with was my hand
Girl imagine if you needed advice about some other
guy, I'm the one that comes to mind
Not tryna' hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body
that you call your man, and anytime you need a
shoulder, It shows not a day, but what I'm
tryna' say is, I wanna be...

[ Chorus: ]
The last number you call late at night,
first one that you dial when you open your eyes...
Wanna be the one you run to, wanna be one that ain't
gon' hurt you, I wanna be him, I wanna be
yea..
Be the man makin yo girls jealous, be the guy
that's shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girls it's all me.. Your soldier
your friend or your lover, girl, I wanna
be...

[ Verse 2: ]
Would it be cool, would you mind if I called you ma
boo, what if the next whip you was pushin'
was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops and take your mama
shoppin', you're the only one I like.
Have you thought about it, wait, really thought about
it? Maybe you should take some time call
your girls and talk about it, yeah.

Cuz' I done already made up my mind, don't need no more
time to know if I wanna be with you, I
wanna be...

[ Chorus ]
The last number you call late at night, first one that you dial when you open your eyes...
Wanna be the one you run to, wanna be one that ain't
gon' hurt you, I wanna be him, I wanna be
yea..
Be the man makin yo girls jealous, be the guy
that's shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girls it's all me.. Your soldier
your friend or your lover, girl, I wanna
be...

[ Verse 3: ]
Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace
and, make me one of your top favorites,
that's where I wanna be... The one you cryin' for,
(stayed up all night fightin' for) wanna be
your good, bad, love, hey girlll..

[ Chorus ]
Cross my heart hope to die, on everything that's good,
I'mma do you right, show you right, get
this understood. Cross my heart hope to die, on
everything thats good, I'mma do you right
show you right, get this understood...

[ Chorus ] The last number you call late at night, first one that you dial when you open your eyes...
Wanna be the one you run to, wanna be one that ain't
gon' hurt you, I wanna be him, I wanna be
yea..
Be the man makin yo girls jealous, be the guy
that's shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girls it's all me.. Your soldier
your friend or your lover, girl, I wanna
be...

Girl I wanna be, I wanna be.... sigh.. I wanna be, I wanna be...

kesempurnaan

kita sentiasa mencari teman hidup
mencari kesempurnaan
dalam hari
dalam hidup

tapi kita sering terlepas pandang yang lebih berharga
sampai kita terlambat menyedari

bagaimana
bagaimana kita tahu itu milik kita?
itu kesempurnaan kita?
bagaimana kita teruskan hidup tanpa rasa ragu?
bagaimana?

masa akan mengubati
takdir akan mendorongi
kita akan turuti

biarlah dunia hancur
apa aku kisah!

ah biarkan saja!!
itu orang berkata
namun kita lebih tahu,lebih tahu kesusahan hati ini

maafkan aku
aku hanya watak dunia
aku hanya mencari itu
kebahagiaan dalam hidup

mungkin bukan semua manusia bertuah
namun aku tahu manusia itu tabah

pergi berlari dan lepaskan mimpi
pergi terbang dan lupakan realiti
menari dalam sunyi
menari dalam sepi

tiba kebahagiaan itu dalam hati
saat itu telah ditetapkan
jangan bersedih bila ia tiba

aku tak tahu betapa indahnya dunia
hijau,biru,merah,putih

saat aku bertemu
kesempurnaan

your guardian angel




When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

February 22, 2008

Jauh Mimpiku


Jauh Mimpiku

Pernahku simpan jauh rasa ini
Berdua jalani cerita
Kau ciptakan mimpiku
Jujurku hanya sesalkan diriku

Kau.. tinggalkan mimpiku
Namun ku hanya sesalkan diriku


Kuharus lepaskanmu
Melupakan senyummu


Semua...tentangmu...tentangku...
Hanya harap
Jauh...kujauh mimpiku
Dengan inginku

February 19, 2008

random survey

ah..tadi ade buat randon survey..the questions are

sifat-sifat lelaki yang diminati...

survey ini dilakukan ke atas 40 org pmpuan..tp yg di bls hanya 25..

and the verdicts are..(dun be surprise!)

1)muka
a:cute/pretty face-10
b:handsome-7
c:chinese/korean/japan look-6
d:melayu-2
no surprise here..women now are goin for beautiful guys..

2)body
a:simple-20
b:buff-2
c:big guy-0
d:thin-3
another no surprise..no one really like a buff guy..i mean..really buff..kalo mcm 300 tu bleh la kot..

3)kewangan
a:tak kisah-7
b:kaya raya-3
c:ala kadar-15
to my surprise..my frens ni tak gile duit rupanya...although i dh suruh jwb dgn jujur..


4)status
a:single-25
b:single dad-0
c:married-0
d:duda-0
ah..takyah cite la soklan nie..

5)kerjaya(soon to be)
a:bos(big company)-0
b:businessman-7
c:biasa je-0
d:professional(lawyer etc)-18
takde sape nk kawin dgn bos company besar ke?maxis?petronas?gucci?guess?

6)personaliti
a:independant-6
b:humorous-10
c:layback-3
d:serious-1
e:unpredictable-5
f:romantik-3
ah..ramai suka laki yg klakar..takde sape suka laki yg serius sgt..

7)syle conscious
a:very stylo-0
b:simple-25
c:none-0
ok..ni pun takde pertandingan

8)romantic level
a:10=2
b:5-9=23
c:1-4=0
takde sape yg suka laki yg gile2 romantik..geli kot?

9)ego level
a:9-10=0
b:5-8=19
c:1-4=6
ego ni kena ade..tp jgn ego sgt...

10)alim level
a:9-10=4
b:5-8=20
c:2-4=1
d:1=0
tak ramai nk laki yg alim gile..tp ade gak nk laki yg ckup2 makan je?hahaha

so ni la randon survey tu..enjoy la guys..hahaha

with you acoustic



Chris Brown - With You lyrics

i just wanna post this up..before i post a survey i made..enjoy

February 15, 2008

in cerita kami

i promise to put this up kan?

orait..so kita ikut gambar ok?

ah..ni masa mula2 nk gerak..takde benda pun nk citer..

pantai kita org stay..tak teruk sgt..tak best sgt..kira okla..

kena buat kerja time hujan..ape lecturer kisah..hahaha


ini cerita kami..


emas kat mersing

umah sementara kat mersing..chalet suara

more fun than work..

so...ini tak byk gambar..tp mostly ini je yg kita org buat..takde..mcm tertulis tu..more fun than work..hahaha..

this is our story..in cerita kami

February 14, 2008

love songs..chosen by my friends

arini 14 Feb..yup the love is in the air...and its started to suffocate me..hehehe..

so arini mcm biasa la kelas jer..takde maknanye nk sambut..ari2 lain pun tak sambut..

i know some pandang valentine day ni mcm ari yg tak elok utk umat Islam..tp tgk pada cara kita sambut gak..kalo niat kita tak elok..well baik takyah digelar islam kan?hahahaha..kalo kita sambut cara baik..baik gak la jd nye..InsyaAllah..

ok..so kali ni post utk valentine,im goin to list out several love songs,chosen by a close frens of mine..n akan ade playlist utk korang main lagu2 nie..enjoy it..and anyway..my choice of love song would be V.E-Ayu..

  • Affan : MARIAH CAREY-MY ALL
  • Jaja : JORDIN SPARKS-TATOO
  • Niza : WANI ARDY-HE
  • Ayol : PLAIN WHITE T'S-HEY THERE DELILAH
  • Aneesa : EDWIN MCCAIN-I'LL BE
  • Nina : TPAIN-LOW
  • Nabila : RONAN KEATING-WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL
  • Fina : SHANIA TWAIN-FROM THIS MOMENT
  • Fina lagi : ERIC BENET N TAMIA-SPEND MY LIFE WITH YOU
  • Fidz : MARC ANTHONY-MY BABY YOU
  • Seri : ARCTIC MONKEYS-YOU KNOW I'M NO GOOD

ok..so the playlist will be under here..click to listen to it..


later..

February 11, 2008

blabbering jer..

hei hei hei(mcm DJ radio mane ntah)

arini aku berborak panjang dgn fid(kwn jabatan aku)..aku baru tau yg dia ni byk betul masalah famili..tp bukan dia yg bermasalah..sedara2 dia..hehehe

tapi aku taknak la tulis kat sini...sian plak nanti..just sekadar nk btau yg idup dia ni penuh drama..kecik2 je dah berdrama..hahaha

oh ye..fid nk kawin masa umur dia 25!!so meh kita ramai2 doakan dia kawin umur tu gak...ok?

so ape nk tulis dlm nie..tak tau lagi..takde idea..sekali sekala blank ni tak masuk akal gak..

oh ramai gak demam last week...seri,aneesa..my sis...sian..tak sangka..kalo aneesa tu maybe body dia terkejut main handball..seri ni plak ade kwn2 yg saiko..so dia naik tensen..my sis ni plak mengada jer lebih..hahaha(mulut jahat)

i think my sis would love to meet them..hahaha..oh dgn ayol dgn jaja skali..sbb my sis suka mkn..dia org pun suka mkn..ok la tu..hahaha

oh ye..aritu ade satu post psl izzati kan..kwn yg jumpa kat KFC tu..ah..kalo nk tau dia ni sape..pegi kat blog aneesa..kat situ ade gambar dia..dgn shida!!hahahaha

smlm ade msg ifa(kwn dari kolej,pernah jd skandal)...dia tak bls,sampai la pagi nie..dia ckp yg dia takde kredit..baru topup,tp smlm aku suruh farid(kwn geo ngan kwn ifa)try msg dia mlm smlm..saje test,bleh la plak!!hahaha..tipu je ifa nie...

kalo tak sayang..ckp tak sayang(emo)

okla..aku nk buat tag..sbb affan dah tag aku..aku tak tau nape aku di tag..tp since dah di tag..so kena la buat..

1.affan
2.ayol
3.niza
4.aneesa
5.seri

yg di tag tu mesti la tag 5 org(harap2 cukup la..)okla..daaa

p/s:aku ade test esok!!!waaa!!!

February 10, 2008

WANI ARDY


im currently listening to WANI ARDY...

who is she?well i know her from niza,she's a talented indie style singer..

now..if u wrote WANI ARDY on google,u will get result of her friendster,facebook,myspace even her blog..

support malaysia music industry..

here'a lyric from one of her song..

SUDDENLY TERLEWAT

Suddenly I think of you
Suddenly you're everywhere
As I wake and as I sleep
Suddenly I dare to dream

Suddenly I sing of you
Suddenly against all odds
Found myself crossing the line
Suddenly I become blind

They wouldn't understand
You wouldn't comprehend
Even I surprise myself

Kau di depan mata
Kau selalu ada
Dunia kita beza

Suddenly I miss you
When I'm not supposed to
And I'm afraid of losing
Something that's not even mine
Namun aku
Terlewat menyedarimu
Dan cinta terlewat
Melewati kita

Dan cinta terlewat
Melewati kita

Dan cinta tiba
Suddenly lewat

February 8, 2008

dapur dah tukar..








hei i did promise to show my new kitchen..well bukan tuka ape2 pun..tuka almari jer..dulu kaler hijau..skrang dah tuka kaler brown..

ive put some pics..and after this another post about my fieldwork kat mersing..later